To Discern

Things are good. Things are great for me.

For the first time in a LONG time…I feel the ground under my feet. I have a solid footing.

Could things possibly be working out?

I’m in a bible study on discernment. As I have prepared this week to meet tonight, several thoughts have come in to my head…but primarily, right now, the thought that is in my head is, “Don’t stop discerning”

Because…things are working out. Through the pain of the past two years…my seperation, divorce, not going to seminary, trying desperately to find work after 6 months of unemployment…I truly feel I’ve been called right where I am. I have discerned. And I have been faithful.

So, it’s easy for me to stop. And maybe that’s what I’m called to do…stop and rest. Regroup. Refresh. But that doesn’t mean stop listening. I must keep discerning, or I will become complacent. So, the following is my prayer for this point in my life. My prayer for continuing discernment…even as I feel confident in my calling to be where I am.

My vision is blurry Lord, make it clear.

My hearing is muffled Lord, make it clear.

My wisdom is cloudy Lord, make it clear.

My heart is scarred Lord, make it clear.

Lord, have mercy.